My life is quite blessed. I have loving friends and family. I have a roof over my head. My boys are healthy. So what do I have to complain about? There are parts of my life in limbo right now. When I try to sign up for health insurance it asks about my income and marital status. My divorce isn't final, and 'my house income' has changed drastically. Trying to sign up for financial aid runs me into the same problem. I don't do well not knowing what I'm doing or what's going to happen. Yes, I know we won't always know what is going to happen. I want to be able to know how I'm going to pay for school, and how much is health insurance going to cost me? My ice maker is still broken. Fusco has blood in his stool. My boys still aren't listening to me...I mean my children aren't respecting me. I need super nanny. I've exercised just a handful of times in the past few months.
Whine, whine, whine! I am done with that. I know what I need to do when it comes to exercise. Get my ass back to the gym, and quit my whining! I can give myself a break about freaking out about school and work, but I'm telling myself to shut up about everything else. For me it helps to complain, and then I move on. I feel like deleting this post, but it is a good reminder to release your complaints, and remind yourself of the blessings in your life.
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The other day my mom and I did a little shopping. I tried a fo leather skirt on that was a size 10! Yes, it fit, and I'd like to say it was a little loose on me! Sadly the zipper was broken, and it was the only skirt available. I actually liked the skirt on me! My mom handed me a cute black jacket to try on. I told her it wasn't going to fit. Oh! The jacket fit, and I loved it! I don't need another jacket, but I really wanted it! I realize I still see myself with the extra 129 pounds on me. I'm working on my self image, but it is taking some time. I still see myself at times as having a big belly. In all I am incredibly happy with what I've done. I went from a size 24 to a size 10 in less than a year!
My mom had the same surgery, and she's doing quite well. I'm so happy for her, and I look forward to exercising with her soon. I also look forward to seeing how happy and healthy she will be!
